Btw, did I tell you...

... that our tickets have arrived? ^^

(c) Michele Grimm

I'm so damn excited xD Well and on the other side I know that I'll get rid of some more nerves there... but my inner voice insisted on going, so I'll go then. No why's and but's ... Maybe you get to see some good pics if I get to make some... 
And I need to watch out that this doesn't become as extreme as the last time when I liked a finnish band... -.- Well whatever this one doesn't seem to be as bad for my health as the last one... so I'll see then.

I also drag myself to draw now cause I wanna finish that damn pic until friday so I can take it with me to my people... but doesn't look good so far so I fear I won't make it....  

It's going forward, but slow. And that just because the foreground is unsharp... pretty hard to draw... still I try. Probably gonna work during the bit of day I got left on friday before my departure... we'll see. 

So far from me... know that the madness left me for a while... ok I'm hearing the songs but that's all at the moment, it's already been much much worse... so ... yeah I think I'll survive =) 

Cya =)

All that remains...

... is another wave of confused desperation ... 

I think my search finally came to an end, I know now what I want... but I will probably never reach that person, so once more it's all lost... My life hates me. And yet it's somewhat funny xD I'm so distracted I don't even find time for art anymore, I just scroll through forums and blogs in the www the whole night long... The whole world is just a bit unsharp at the moment. I feel like I've been shot with something.

And yet .. There is a question I have for you to answer... I did a poll.  Cause I just can't decide which pic I wanna draw next, so you have to do that for me... For all of you who are on deviant art - you can vote here, for all who don't have dA, I also did that poll on my facebook page, so you can vote as well =) I think I'll stay with those 6 pics now, couldn't find any more, good resolution photos I liked... -.-° Curious for your votes now =)

Cya :3

Well well ...

First thing I wanna say: I take back what I said in the entry from July 17th. (now deleted) Watched a few of the newer videos and actually didn't find them quite bad. It's different and it could be better but it's defintaly not crap. And I found a ton of old and newer stuff on my harddisk.

Our concert tickes have been dispatched today, can't wait to hold mine in my hands. After all these years it seems fandom has got me again xD No, I think this is gonna be very very cool. I already see myself standing there thinking - wow, they really exist.

And I just can't help myself, I think I'm developing some kind of guitar riff - love or something... same for awesome solos ... I just could hear it over and over again and drown in it... Love this one at the moment (Yeah, actually the guitar, not the voice xD):

So... yeah xDD Hearing it on repeat and full volume just cause I can't do any different <3 Sorry for the bad sound quality, had to post dailymotion cause it's blocked on youtube here in germany -.-

And once again it crosses my mind - in about 1 1/2 weeks I'm gonna see my "brothers" and their band again... in an area from where I have kinda bad memories... I think I'm gonna take this chance to solve a few of my past mistakes... and finally find peace. And after that maybe never return. I dunno yet. Just would be better for us all. I'll see then.

And - something in my own right - Would you like to have Shirts, pillows, laptop skins or iphone - cases with my art on it? You can get it here on society6, they have free shipping through sunday, worldwide. Just thought I'd let you know =)

Ok but enough babbling for now, see you all next time =)

I found him!!

Just wanted to let you know, THIS is the guy I saw at the south kensington tube station in London :D Saw many street musicians in London, but this one has taken a place in my mind ... He's so goddamn awesome, those two songs I heard while waiting for my tube just blew me away. (Sounds much better when you're down there in the tube station, youtube can't show the amazingness of this guitar playing ..)

BTW - if you are that guitar player and see this entry: You should do youtube videos and get known more, cause you really got the skills! ('n probably leave a comment on here? =) ) Love it.

Jealous.

Yeah I kinda am cause I couldn't afford another flight this year to see THIS

...

A few friends of mine were there, just waitin for the pics and reports now... 

Yeah I admit I'm still on it... despite all the shit a certain person told me (same as in the last entry who I think of has fooled me...) JD's a damn inspiration for me, I even took reference on his production company to name my own business, just so you know x) I wanted something in latin... xD That guy's probably one of the factors that keep my creativity alive and give me self esteem as an artist. And one of the reasons for my DVD collection getting bigger and bigger... xD So... yeah. One fine day I'll also make it to one of these premieres... nothing's impossible, even the impossible. 

</melancholy> Art Refugium over and out. :3

Lalala xD

Oh I just couldn't let it be and finally did the layout I wanted after having a fight with my new router not willing to give me fast internet... packed the thing back into the box in which it came and set up the old one again... and see- everything works fine again.

So... Yeah I kinda admit I was somehow jealous of some other people's blogs, that's why I did this massive layout x) It's not perfect but well, I'm still an apprentice :) 

What belongs to the art - I decided to continue my mountain castle project ... sketched the castle yesterday but somehow the proportions aren't right and I think I'm gonna do it again... practise makes the master... whatever xD

Well then, hope you enjoy the new layout, cya =)

P.S.: Once more turned the layout upside down cause I found some stuff I didn't like xD but now it's all fixed <3 

So ... so.

Thought I surprise you with a new layout =) I'm sorry that some of the recent entries look a bit distorted, will fix that later on :) My internet is barely working at the moment, works for 5 to 30 minutes and then is gone for 5 minutes to 6 hours... everything's crazy at the moment... just thought I let you know =)

For everything else ... now that internet is mad I had some time to look through an old story and some records... it's funny how much of your experiences you tend to forget while years pass by... I was quite shocked about some stuff. 
I now decided that I'll really do that "rewind" - trip I spoke of in the last entry. I'll begin a new chapter and quit with the old stuff, though I'll never be able to forgive that guy. It's impossible. But I need to go on in life. And it shall be a warning to me to never do shit like this again. Just to keep my damn mouth shut in certain situations... 

For now I'll go to bed =) Would like to stay awake cause the sun is shining and the air smells so good but I'm just so tired T_T can't take it anymore... so see ya =)  

P.S.: Sorry if the background looks a bit displaced, I just can't figure out how to make a background fit every screen resolution -.- Mine is 1440x900

Show must go on.

Hello me hearties,

sorry that I didn't write again for so long, didn't really feel like typing while being not at home... 

Came back today from a nerve-wrecking 9 1/2 day trip to Ingolstadt to watch over my bosses 3 cats... Mostly the 2 boys and the girl were behaving well but there were a few days when I just wanted to shoot them ...  And if that wouldn't have been enough, I became sick just as my boss left the house and I'm still coughing -.- 

I also had a look at a flat last wednesday and I like it very much, it's in Greding which is very central to get everywhere I need to go ... gonna phone that flat guy tomorrow about what's going on now.. I wanna have that flat ò_ó

Annd on saturday I've been out to see my "brothers" and their band again. Was a nice cozy evening though I tried to not infect anybody... Was a bit crashed after that evening cause there are still some problems to solve but I'll survive. 

So ... yeah, now I'm trying to get back on track and on with normal life... cya =)

P.S.: And there seems to be a need for me to do an art therapy session again to get over a person that's wreaking havoc in my mind at the moment... Someone who pretended to want something from me and then just dropped me ... I think I'm gonna do a therapy portrait...
And I found another way to maybe cut off that knot... My brothers are playing a gig again soon in that area where I went almost every weekend ago many years to see that guy ... So I'll just drive that old road and re-program my memory of all those places to finally forget... Maybe I'll even visit that place where I told him what's going on ... just to wipe it all out... to forget that half year of my life I wasted for that ****... 

P.P.S.: The flat I had a look at has been taken by someone else :( Well then, let the quest begin anew...